Maisie Dorset

Maisie Dorset born on 10th March 2004 at 25+6 Weeks she sadly died in SCBU 20th March 2004. My
sweetheart Maisie you were a fighter to the end you'll always be gone but never be forgotten.

I was happy when I found out I was pregnant in October 2003 from the start I had really bad sickness
and due to my heart condition I had to inject myself daily so I wasn't having such a good time.

In the middle of January I went to a out of hours GP because i was concerned about heart
palpitations and I was feeling a little short of breath after seeing a Dr and having a heart trace I
was reassured I was fine and I just had a irregular but normal heart rhythm. Following that I
visited GP's, A&E with breathlessness and general feeling of being unwell each time I was reassured
that I was fine. On Saturday the 28th February 2004 I was about 23 weeks pregnant by this time but I
still hadn't felt my baby move but I wasn't concerned about that i just thought she' be a late
wriggler that morning I woke feeling very breathless even when I was lied down I was vomiting and
there was blood in it I was scared an so tired I really couldn't believe that this was normal my
husband called our GP and yet again we visited the out of ours GP clinic at our local hospital I was
that exhausted I could hardly walk, the GP I saw there came down to my level and softly said "I
think your just panicking aren't you" and diagnosed anxiety attacks he gave me some Diazepam tablets
I remember leaving the hospital thinking I'm so stupid I've put my husband through this again and
all I have is anxiety but another part of me thought the Dr was wrong I'd never really had server
anxiety but I'm sure it wouldn't make me feel as bad as this we went home and I took one of the
tablets but 4 hours later I didn't feel any different I felt worse if anything we returned again to
the out of hours GP and the Dr said that he thought I was holding some fluid somewhere but he
couldn't be sure where he sent me straight to another hospital to see the Cardiologist on call when
we arrived there he said that there was something wrong with my heart but I should go home and come
back to a outpatients appointment but I just wouldn't have that I have been feeling ill for the past
couple of months I'm 22 weeks pregnant with a heart condition and the Dr just told me there
something wrong I was going no where I insisted that I was admitted.

To cut a long story short after a heart scan the found out that I was in heart failure and I had
pneumonia because of it after a couple of days I was taken to ICU where I was sustained on
medication for another week but I needed an emergency heart valve replacement so on the 10th March
2004 they delivered Maisie by CS she was taken straight to SCBU in another hospital the following
day I had a heart valve replacement they didn't wake me up after the CS so I didn't know that my
baby had been born my husband went from my bed to hers he was so strong and was there for our little
girl. Maisie did so well she even started on formula milk things were looking hopeful for her I was
very ill in ICU I nearly died a couple of times after my surgery but on the 20th March 2004 they
reduced my sedation and I came round in ICU I was scared I didn't know what had happened and with a
Tracheotomy I couldn't talk. My husband told me that we'd had a little girl Maisie and she was doing
well in SCBU I was freaked out but happy I will never forget his happy face he hoped that at last
his two girls would be able to meet.

That night Maisie took a turn for the worst as lots of premature babies do and she sadly died losing
her 10 day long fight for life I never got to meet my little girl or be there for her but there
isn't one day that I don't think about her.

Maisie our eyes may have never met and my lips never touched your cheek but that doesn't mean that
mummy loves you any less you will always be my special little girl and in my heart forever,


A poem for you sweetheart

I never got to tell you this
Or see your little face
Couldn't hold you in my arms
Or feel your small embrace

I never knew just what I lost
your touch
your face
your smell
But it sure was the closest I've been to hell

Since then you've gained a brother
Lifting this dark and angry curse
Although I love him more then life
You'll always be my first

Mummy xxxxx

I am pleased to say that on 3rd May 2005 Maisie's little brother Harley was born screaming and is
now a healthy 3 year little boy he is the light of my life and is my sunshine after the storm of
losing my sweetheart daughter, he is just learning about our sweetheart Maisie and she will always
be a part of our lives. On 27th May 2008 I had my second child after Maisie shes called Autumn Lily
Maisie Dorset another sunshine in my life.